Stuck inside your head, A cage, a cavern, a trap, Like a chest with something locked away inside, Except your not on the outside, Your trapped on the inside.
A silent whisper, Overwhelmed by a deafening shout, With your thoughts barley making way to be heard, So quite they just don’t make sense, And you feel like your drowning, The thoughts you want to drown don’t – they survive.
I was young and unaware. Thinking I could do it myself. Survive it myself. I didn’t need to tell anyone. I couldn’t tell anyone. How would I even begin? Even I didn’t understand it – so how could someone possibly understand? But I was younger. And I wish I knew to of spoken. I know she didn’t understand what she kept pushing herself into. I wish I had a magic wand to go back in time and make her speak. But I can’t. But what I can do is forgive her. I can not change the past. But I can change the future. I want to look back and do my younger self proud. I want to make a magic wand for her. To do what I would want everyone else to do.
Talk
It’s one of the hardest things to do. But for recovery speaking is key. At some point it may make you say and believe “I can’t cope”. But the truth is we CAN cope. Sometimes it will be harder but it doesn’t last forever. We can choose to make our own magic wand. It’s never to late to start.
Grasp hold of that light, No matter how small or large, Protect it, Care for it.
Fight the darkness, Fight that voice, And at times when it gets to much, Let it in.
But don’t let it stay, You are stronger than the darkness, Show your strength, Let the magic grow your light.
We will keep fighting until the darkness is dissolved by our strength. So make time for you, do the things you enjoy, it’s okay to say no, it’s okay to have a bad day. There are some forms of “magic” to help. Choose your wand and let the magic help you.
To my younger self- I know if and when I have to, I can and I will speak up.
Remember sometimes you have to speak up. Don’t be afraid to speak up.
“It’s important to remember that we all have magic inside us.
J.K Rowling
Domestic abuse effects all age groups. Just because it can’t be seen doesn’t mean it doesn’t come with an impact.
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