Dear me, I know you can handle this. You have to tell yourself that no matter how hard it is, how hard it gets, I know your going to make it. I know your feeling tired and fed up. The thoughts that don’t belong there, the agonising terror in your chest. The fear that eachContinue reading “Love Me”
Author Archives: amyl631
It always hurts
Don’t you understand that it always hurts? The tornado of a mess that goes of in my head. The hurting sounds of my heart beating at a hundred miles an hour. I know it’s not a race but my body thinks it is. The flight response that kicks the nerves in. The nerves that neverContinue reading “It always hurts”
frustration
Frustration is a big thing anxiety can cause. And I hate it. You can get so frustrated at the smallest amount of things. Like on those days where you’ve planned to meet up with friends, you’ve been wanting to go out with them for ages but your mind says no. And you hate yourself forContinue reading “frustration”
No matter the struggle
We all have them days when life feels a little to much, We just want to sit in bed and watch tv. However, it isn’t always like this, what if it always feel like to much. How can it be “one of those days” when I feel like it everyday? The aching from a forcedContinue reading “No matter the struggle”
Life
I am stuck in a hole of a never ending darkness, no light and no exit, just cries and loud voices. Dragged throughout the day the tinniest piece of hope, one of these days I’ll be back to me. Temporary smiles and empty laughs, living with no particular destination. Get me out of here, IContinue reading “Life”
Remembering
I used to say that When I grow up, I want to be like dad Just thinking about him Tears rise in my eyes I can still hear it Dad’s pantomime laugh Bouncing of the kitchen walls My mother A riot of plates and cutlery Throwing his dinner on the table Him griping about workContinue reading “Remembering”
You asked, what is the scariest part?
The scariest part is when the path seems too arduous to walk through,And I feel I’ve reached a dead end,With nowhere to go, standing motionless on the pavements,Everything seems downhill, and I begin to descend. The scariest part is when my wings are cut, Watching my spirit fly away, With no needle or thread toContinue reading “You asked, what is the scariest part?”
Unpack the weight your always carrying
Every morning I wake up to my back carrying the weight of stresses and worries. The weight pulls me down making me heavy, making it impossible to rise back up. The feeling of sickness drowns me but yet is a huge fear of mine. Worries amplified, stacked on top of one another. It’s hard toContinue reading “Unpack the weight your always carrying”
Why she stayed silent
I forgive you, He cadged and contained you, Took all your worth away, Beat you down to nothing, The control he used to de soul you, But you just saw it as the norm. But it wasn’t. I can see why you stayed silent, You wasn’t realize, But it sill hurts to know, that you,Continue reading “Why she stayed silent”
Dear me at 17
Your 17. I wrote this because I knew you’d make it. Because you where always going to make it. At times it might of been a stretch. But you can do it. Your year of being 16 may of been different from what you imagined. But the strength you pulled from that year has beenContinue reading “Dear me at 17”
